Friday, December 17, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Here is something that I have been learning lately. I have a hard time fully accepting grace. There are things that I have read and heard about how God loves me so much and how he looks at me with as his son who he very proud of. I just have a hard time fully accepting this at times. It is not that I don't accept God's love at all, because in my head "I know" he loves me. It is like this. I know that the Aurora Borealis is beautiful but I have really experience it? I have not seen it with my own eyes, heard the silence in the Arctic as the the colors dance in the sky or felt cold on my face as I was amazed by it. You see there is a difference between knowing the beauty of something like the Aurora Borealis and fully taking in the varied aspects of its beauty.
Don't misunderstand. I believe God loves me. He has shown me over and over again. So, that fact that he loves me is not really in question, but somewhere Satan has done a good job deceiving me, so that it has become hard to experience this in my heart. It is crazy because I know his love to be true, I have taught his love to be true and have seen others receive the benefits of his love. But still, trying take it in to where I know that neither my good deeds or my bad deeds change his love for me has been difficult. I am so used to being evaluated and/or 'loved' (by myself and others) based on my abilities or lack there of.
So, this is my prayer to God today. God, I know that you love me. You have shown it over and over again through you what you have done for me. So, help to the feel and know your love more deeply and to take it in completely. I want to receive your love like the ground receives the rain. I want know how high, how wide and how deep is the love that you have for me. Let your love rain fall on this barren land. In Jesus name, amen.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Praying for the impossible is a waste of time, because a prayer like that doesn't work. Now before you believers in prayer click to another blog in disgust and before prayer skeptics exclaim, 'Finally an end to this prayer nonsense,' I want you to understand where I am coming from.
Recently, I was asked, 'Should we pray for the impossible.' Normally, I would say yes, but this time my spirit said no. Here is the reason why I have changed my thinking. The definition of the word impossible is 'incapable of being done, undertaken, or experienced.' So if we pray for the impossible, then by definition we are praying for something that can't be accomplished. Or at least we believe that is it impossible to be accomplished.
Jesus' disciples prayed for what they believed to be impossible. Or at least their faith didn't not match with what they asked for. In Matthew 17:14-20. The disciples tried to cast out a demon from a boy but they could not. After Jesus cast the demon out of the boy, the disciples asked, why they couldn't cast the demon out. Jesus responded, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." The disciples didn't believe that it was possible or at least they didn't believe that it was likely, therefore it was impossible for them.
There are some things that I don't pray for because they are impossible. For example: I don't pray that God will lie to cover up my sin. I don't pray for God to lie because he won't. It is impossible. It says so in Hebrews 6:18. I would never pray for God to reverse what he did through Jesus. That would be an impossible prayer. It is impossible because it goes against God's unchangeable nature. Not only are these prayers fruitless but they would be a waste of time. Why bother asking for something that can't be done.
Here is what I would suggest. Believe in the infinite possibilities that come from praying to God. If we are going to pray, then we must believe that what we are asking for can be granted. Also, If we are sure that what we are asking for is God's will, then we should not only believe it to be possible, but we should expect it to be granted. With God the possibilities become endless. If we believe in a God who makes all things possible (Matthew 19:26), then we won't pray for the impossible. We will pray to a God who destroys the notion of impossibilities.
Friday, January 22, 2010
For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?
Esther 4:14 NIV
I don't generally think of myself as having royal position. I tend to think about my limited funds, limited influence and other limiting things to reinforce my thoughts about my position in life. But then I am reminded of my royal position when I drive pass the guy the with a sign that simply says, "Hungry, Need Help" after I am full from my lunch from the value menu or when I get that email about the former classmate who now has cancer after I have returned from playing hoops with the guys. If these kinds of things weren't enough, The Spirit reminds me that I have royal position by the simple fact that I am a son of God.
So, there are times when something stirs in me to act on someone's behalf or for the common good, but my limiting thoughts make room for fear and doubt to throw up "Caution" and "Do Not Enter" signs in my path. During these times may my God and Father remind me of my position, so that I may act. Not that I shouldl act out of guilt, because what God wants will be done with or with out me. No, may I act from the joy of joining God in accomplishing the improbable and the impossible. All the while kicking down "Caution" and "Do Not Enter" signs along the way.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
A broken people cry out for a broken people.
A people who have all and need All,
have our eyes on people who have none and need All.
I pray for the miraculous.
A miraculous move of your Spirit in the hearts of your people.
Use us to heal, restore, comfort, aid, show compassion
and revive a devastated people.
Move mountains of compassion and place them in Haiti
May they be towers that declare your glory, healing and love.
In the name of the one who was broken for us.